Don’t know if I can rely on you

after all is said and done

Nastiest things said to me

have been exclaimed by you

And no doubt you see me as scum

for all the mistakes I’ve made and

all the adversity I’ve faced throughout

the duration of my adulthood

If I should fall, I won’t drag you down

in the same way you have with your

resentments and your envy, and you

know damn well you possess the

venom of the snakes you embody

I was addicted to you like nicotine

and you were a habit I needed

to kick, for you stifled my breathing

All the while, you tried to save face

while I saw the evil, saw the seven

sins you dissolved into seven seas

You will never value me, you will only

see me as an obstacle in the same

way you once saw me as a gateway

to a land no poet is ever promised

There is no tomorrow for us and a

fortnight filled with empty apologies

won’t win me over, and to this day

I wonder if the past twenty years

was genuine, or if I’m simply a

scapegoat for your inadequacy

For certain, there will come a point

where I can forgive you, but if I

should fall from grace with God

I would flop like an asphyxiating

fish, turn into a better version of

myself as an angel, and bless

the rivers on the shores of

my meandering madness

Soon enough, I will stop wondering

if you ever gave a shit about me

-Jacob R. Moses